I’m a 47-year-old virgin – That’s why I’m frightened

One man said he was still a 47-year-old virgin because he was “petified” to maintain close relationships with anyone.

Andrew Brookman said he has been “timid” and bullied at school.

He claimed his parents divorced when they were 10 years old, which inspired him to fear of socializing, building romantic relationships or maintaining close relationships with anyone.

Andrew didn’t want to argue, but was “fearing life” so he felt he “will rather be alone.”

He said his fear also stems from suppressing his sexual and homophobia that he saw when he grew up.

Porn became his “only outlet” and quoted sex, and Andrew said he struggled to watch it at least two hours a day in his 30s.

Now he is starting to be open to his sexual behavior and no longer feels ashamed of Wilkin, 47.

He felt he could connect with those on Channel 4’s new show, Virgin Island, a unique intimate course that could help them overcome the fears that would stop them.

Andrew, a cleaner from Wales, said: “I have never encountered a relationship.

“Watching someone else to divorce – seeing arguments has made me worry about socializing and intimacy.

“I don’t want to go through all of this.

“I would rather be alone.

“You feel ashamed [being a virgin].

“No confidence, no self-esteem, no self-worth, and no self-suppression have led me to seek treatment because I am shocked by being intimate with anyone.

“I don’t feel ashamed of a 47-year-old virgin.”

Andrew struggled to grow up and always felt that he was “different”.

He said: “I have always been timid and quiet.

“I’ve been scared, I’ve been emotional.

“I was bullied at school.

“I’m different. I’m weird.”

As a teenager, he “fantasized about girls” but didn’t know how to improve.

“I want to move forward, but I can’t be because of my confidence,” he said.

Andrew realized at the age of 16 that he was attracted to men and homosexuality, but he was afraid to open up his sexual behavior at the time because of social homophobia.

He said: “The fear has increased.

“I walked into the closet.”

In his 20s, he received treatment and took antidepressants, but Andrew was still struggling to resolve his fears.

He also dealt with his 30s porn addiction when he owns his place – he watches gay porn every night.

“This is my only channel,” Andrew said.

“It’s my only way to feel and see sex.

“I want to do that, too. I’m jealous of them [the porn stars].

“I’m so angry that I can’t even have sex in private.”

Now he started writing a book called “The Color of Rare Birds” and began to put down the wall.

He said writing down his feelings helped him overcome his shame, and he was volunteering for the first time in his local pride.

Andrew said he doesn’t like the laughter of people being virgins to others.

He said: “It’s not interesting.

“So far, I should be openly gay – I should be in a romantic relationship.

“I’m not afraid to admit it now [that he’s a virgin]. ”